1. what do you mean I didn’t do anything?
    I always do somethjng.
    Sent: Yesterday 11:51 PM

    I’m always fucking up
    Sent: Yesterday 11:51 PM

    It’s hard not to, when youre too big for
    this world, too heavy for the eggshell
    foundation you grew up on
    Sent: Yesterday 11:52 PM

    no no, I don’t mean big like better
    Sent: Yesterday 11:52 PM

    I’m not saying I’m better than anyone.
    and I’m not saying i’ deserve anything
    more than this
    Sent: Yesterday 11:53 PM

    whatever “this” is
    Sent: Yesterday 11:53 PM

    I’m just sayibg, my ears are full of
    clouds, I take up too much space, I’m
    a giant a freak, evn my baby steps
    destroy things.
    Sent: Yesterday 11:55 PM

    I don;t know. I don’t know , I don’t
    know.
    Sent: Yesterday 11:56 PM

    I just feel too heavy in my hands and
    my jaw and my knees, like every time
    I want to lift a hand or take a step or
    say hello, i jerk and stumble and tip
    over. my balance is always off.
    Sent: Yesterday 11:59 PM

    I’m not really talking about
    clumsiness, I guess.
    Sent: Today 12:00 AM

    you can throw your stones, but I
    never meant to hurt you. I only wanted
    to love you„ would still love to love
    you, but I crushed you when I tried to
    hold your hand
    Sent: Today 12:03 AM

    it was an accident
    Sent: Today 12:03 AM

    a mistake
    Sent: Today 12:03 AM

    I took too much or I gave too much,
    I don’t know. I don’t think I knew
    the difference.
    Sent: Today 12:04 AM

    I’m trying so hard to make you
    understand. i guess even I dont really
    understand.
    Sent: Today 12:07 AM

    I just love you
    Sent: Today 12:09 AM

    and I don’t know if I’m meant for love.
    I don’t know
    Sent: Today 12:10 AM

    I mean, I don’t know if love is the kind
    of thing Im ever going to be good at.
    Sent: Today 12:10 AM

    I just always feel so overwhelmed
    Sent: Today 12:11 AM

    maybe it is better to be lonely than
    in love.
    Sent: Today 12:13 AM

    I don’t think it’s easier. but at least
    I wouldn’t be hurting anybody
    Sent: 12:14 AM

    I’m hurting everybody
    Sent: Today 12:15 AM

    No
    Sent: Today 12:17 AM

    yeah, yeah. maybe I’m being
    overdramatic.
    Sent: Today 12:23 AM

    ha, I don’t even know what I’m
    talking about anymore.
    Sent: Today 12:24 AM

    okay. goodnight then.
    Sent: Today 12:24 AM

    sleep well
    Sent: Today 12:25 AM

     

  2. i want to be imaginary

     

  3. Sometimes I say no
    I whisper it to myself when I’m alone
    I suck on the word
    I sleep with it
    I burn it into my wrists

    I never have a choice

     

  4. Yesterday my mother asked me where my words come from.
    I told her I wasn’t sure,
    and the wrinkle between us sunk deeper
    into the living room.

    She stared at me – you cannot be my child
    until she gave up and looked away.

    Today I am writing this poem about it.
    She will never know that it exists.
    She will never know that some of my words
    came from her – her hollow eyes,
    her unanswered questions,
    her tentative love.

     
  5. Everyone in this town
    Is seeing somebody else
    Everybody’s tired of someone
    Our eyes wander for help

    Prayers that need no answer now
    ‘Cause I’m tired of who I am
    You were my greatest mistake
    I fell in love with your sin
    Your littlest sin

     
     
  6. They forced us to wear bunny ears at my work today

    Happy easter I guess

     

  7. Some little girl just looked at the pizza and said “I’m hungerrrr!”

     

  8. Currently in Chuck E. Cheese’s, reading about serial killers

     

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  10. the sky
    is blue
    tile.
    sometimes
    the earth
    gets too
    hot
    and the smoke
    detectors
    go off
    and the water
    trickles
    down
    on everything.
    sometimes
    strong
    men
    and women
    unscrew
    the moon
    and climb up
    inside
    the night
    to fix
    the lighting
    when the sun
    starts
    to flicker.
    sometimes
    I toss
    spaghetti
    up
    towards
    the ceiling
    and it sticks
    to the stars.